Monday, February 9, 2009
Back to What I Like to Remember + Favorite Things (Hints of Spring)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
What I Like to Remember about October, Cont'd.

Back to what I visualize or see in my recollections: I'm in the cowgirl costume which Mother had put together - red hat, vest, guns, red bandana, ... but Jeans!!! It should have been a skirt. That's where we messed up - because I'm standing there feeling like I look like a boy - which was very disappointing to me - and one of my friends walked in as a PRINCESS. I just remember the feeling of "WHY DIDN'T I THINK ABOUT THAT - BEING A PRINCESS??" Her dress was made of pink netting and I can still see her face and her enjoying the unanimous approval ratings in her favor. My hat was off to her. In my childlike way, I took complete responsibility for my choices - I had a sense of knowing to never again give up my "voice" in selecting a Halloween costume. This is vague but I think there was a parade that year. The band led the parade and all the kids marched 2 by 2.
I think Jeannie(the princess) and I were partners. We were really good friends.



These are very blurry - but wanted to give a visual perspective.
Friday, September 5, 2008
1962 Diary Entries and 1962 School Days
I'm going to catch up on my 1962 Diary posts - after writing yesterday about the Spring Queen Contest - made me think of those days.
The last post was August 27, 1962 - so today I'll start with the 28th. Let me just explain that this is a five year diary. I didn't maintain it for 5 years. It was a Christmas present in the fifth grade, so I began my entries in December of 1961. I was in the fifth grade. Now it is August 28, 1962 and I am about to be in the 6th grade. I've almost been doing these entries for a year and am starting to lose interest. I left days blank as we're about to see. There were only four lines for each day to make an entry, which is why it is all written in such a blunt, matter of fact way. It isn't a journal at all. Just allows for a few facts. By the sixth grade some of friends were starting to mature, I suppose. Or set their sites on the teen years. I wasn't. I didn't really go through puberty until I was 15. I was a very late bloomer. In the sixth grade I was still playing with Barbie Dolls and received a Chatty Baby for Christmas that year. I don't think my hormones were stirring at all. Okay - August 28th...
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Back to Ellie. Her pronunciations. I love it.
So, now she is saying The Pledge of Allegiance, which I think Ann has written about on her blog - well there is more - I don't think Ann has time right now to blog - and I learned last night more of Ellie's version of The P of A. I don't have it all, but I intend to get it down on paper. The following is what I know so far.....
Thursday, August 7, 2008
AUGUST 2008, AUGUST 1962, AND MARCH 1968

This is Evergreen United Methodist Church.
Dear Diary, went to Sunday School and Church. Always. Every Sunday.
My church. As believers, don't we know it's not about the building? Especially now, living in this culture, we've become so very mobile - hardly anyone stays in one place very long. I was born in a time when we weren't mobile at all. I still don't enjoy "mobility" very much. I don't know what it is about legacy and inheritance - but there is something about being able to say that My grandparents were there when the cornerstone was laid on this building. My parents were married in this church. I was married in this church. Mother and Daddy's funerals were held in this church. My aunt is the organist and has been as long as I can remember. Daddy was the choir director for so very long - that we all wondered how it would work without him. He had to quit when his Alzheimer's Disease was getting the best of him. He did it on his own when he realized things were getting a little weird. My sister, Mary Ann, after moving back to Evergreen, returned to Evergreen Methodist. She now plays the piano there and sings in the choir. I have 3 first cousins who were married here and 2 second cousins. My cousin's daughter is engaged and presently planning a wedding in this church. I suppose my 3 aunts were married in this church. I know Mary and Florence were. I am just not sure about Lucille. All the Vacation Bible Schools, all the Christmases, all the Easters, all the fellowship meals, all the MYF's, all the youth group stuff, in this church- I actually didn't understand the gospel for the first time here. I was a few blocks over in the basement of the Presbyterian Church, when Frank Barker of Briarwood Presbyterian in Birmingham was speaking to the "youth" in the community. It was March of 1968. I was a junior at Evergreen High School. Most of us had been to a Billy Graham movie in Greenville, AL - "The Restless Ones" - it was the first of those kinds of films. I even remember what dress I wore to the movie and the events before my "guy friend", not boyfriend, picked me up. There was an altar call at the end of the movie - "Just As I Am". I remember feeling like I should "set an example" for the other people in the theater, by going down to the front of the movie theater. (I so didn't understand my unregenerated state - not at all - I was still in that fog of blindness - thinking it was all about my good behavior -) That movie was on a Saturday Night. Next day Sunday and then that night our Sunday night services were cancelled so we could all go over to the Presbyterian Church to hear Frank Barker. We all heard him speak, I loved what I heard - I remember that - but still didn't understand my deadness -
There was an announcement that the youth were to go down to the basement, where classrooms were. Frank Barker would meet with us to discuss the movie with him. We did that. I remember how it felt to be sitting there with cousins and friends - all of them I knew quite well. I don't remember all of those who were there, but I remember a few, specifically. I can still feel that sense of responsibility that I felt - sympathy for Frank Barker - because he was not getting a whole lot of response from any of us - and I actually couldn't think of anything to say, either. What I didn't know, but realized later - Frank Barker understood the situation quite well - and was probably praying for the Holy Spirit to please light up the truth for us - He had to have seen clearly that we were all living in darkness - not understanding the truth of the gospel.
And then that moment. Dr. Barker's tone of voice was one of, "Let me try to explain it this way, since you're not understanding it all the other ways." And he explained it using the Courtroom scene. Someone has been declared guilty, sentenced to prison, or payment of a debt. The one whom that guilty person owes steps up to clear the guilty person by either paying the debt or going to prison for him. And the judge says to the guilty man, "You're free, the debt has been paid". That's when the light came on for me. I had never known that I owed a debt. I didn't know that even one sin was an indication of my fallen nature - that the whole sin nature had to be dealt with. He must have gone on to explain so much - because at age 16, I knew that Christ had to have all of me - that it was not just saying a sentence, not just signing on a dotted line, not just getting a ticket for free - Whatever he said and taught that night, I understood it was my life for Christ's. He was offering rebirth - He would be born into me - born again - empowering me to live like Him. I didn't know all those words - but I understood that He had bought me with His blood. I had such a light in my brain and soul and spirit. I told noone there in the basement of the Presbyterian Church. I certainly didn't tell Dr. Barker. In my mind's eye, I see myself walking out of that place, somewhat in shock, and I see myself riding home with Mother and Daddy and Mary Ann, in the backseat of our Dark Green, Ford Galaxy 500, :-), thinking about all that I had just heard, with every intention of conversing with God once I was alone in my bed. I can feel the way I felt as we pulled into our carport - and I finally did begin to speak to my family, asking, "Did ya'll know that Christ had to pay for our sins on the cross????" - and it was questions like that, "Did you know this? Did you know this or that??!!!" I was feeling like there was this cosmic secret noone had fully explained to me. I think they were feeling like there was this cosmic secret they had been trying to explain to me but I wasn't getting it. I remember Mary Ann next to me, and thinking she was not getting it. That's a whole other story and on this day, she is 59, and definitely gets it. Her testimony is all very different from mine. She relinquished her life to Him a couple of years after that, at Huntingdon College, reading The Christian's Secret of a Happy Life by Hannah Smith. {Sorry grammar people, this offers no way to underline the title of a book, so I boldfaced it. :-( } And then she entered a whole new phase of understanding the full extent of His work on the cross, several years into her adult life. Really produced a dramatic change in her peace and spirit. It was the teaching of Michael Horton, and his books and tapes that gave her a whole new understanding. If you're reading this, Mary Ann, sorry I am tampering with your testimony. I bet I'm not getting it completely correct. :-( Forgive me.
Anyway, back to our pulling into the driveway and carport. My questions, their answers. I was thinking, "Nevermind - I have to get to bed and talk to God". So in we went. I systematically got ready for bed, pajamas, brush teeth - It was a 2 bedroom house with one bathroom - I have no recollection of what the others were doing - I was about to be born again - enter into eternal life, become a citizen of the Kingdom of God - Praise God, Praise God, Praise God - I was about to be set free - shackles loosed, chains broken - Hallalujah!
I can feel the way it felt in my twin bed which I had slept in for so long, but had been rearranged many times in our room, looking for some kind of change or variety. I can feel myself inside my flesh - saying to HIM who holds the universe in the palm of His hand - the one true God - The Sovereign Creator of all living things - The Father, The Son, The Holy Spirit -
I said, "well, you heard what I heard - Dr. Barker said this - and so.....I invite you into my heart. There it is. I open the door of my heart and invite you in. I give you all of me. I know that my life is no longer my own - and so everything I have and am is yours." I told Him all the ways I understood it. I even told Him I knew that I would have much stuff in my future that would cause me to wander, let go - but that I would trust Him to never let go of me. I wanted Him to keep me near Him. He did. He has. I think that today I will look up scripture to post tomorrow or the next day - which show His word of promise - like the one about He who began a good work in you is able or faithful to complete it - So, I can feel myself lying there in bed, and closing that prayer that gave me birth into a new and living hope - into life - He rescued me from the dominion of darkness into His Kingdom of Light. I said something like, "Well, that's it. I'm trusting that You are now in my heart and will do all that You promised to do. I trust that I am now a Christian and that my sins and sin are paid for. I trust that I am born again." I closed it like that and went to sleep. It was all very matter of fact. There was absolutely no drama, no elaborate emotions, noone knew what I did, until I began to tell it - I didn't plan that night to start telling it, but it's hard not to. It's hard not to want everyone to hear it and to know it - so I began my clumsy efforts to share. I've always been clumsy with it. I didn't know that night about spiritual gifts. I didn't know that I definitely didn't get the gift of evangelism. Oh man. I'm the worst sharer of the gospel in the world. I can confuse anyone and leave them hanging. Sad. But it's all God's business. He knows what to do with people. Thankfully, it's not up to me.
I really didn't know what I would post today. I didn't plan that. I just began with my diary entries, knew I actually had a picture of my childhood church, put that in, and it all evolved into a detail of my conversion experience.
I have lots of letters that my parents and grandparents have saved which I want to put in this blog at some point. They give us insight into the culture during the 40's and 50's. The way family used to be - the way neighborhoods and cities and small towns used to be. God is in control of history, so I don't pine away that it's not the way it used to be. It was my time to be born, in 1951 - so those years from then to now have shaped me. It's what I have to share from. I am delighted that we are moving closer and closer to The Day of His Coming. I'm beyond thankful that He has allowed me to live and be a part of His Kingdom - and that one day there will be a New Heaven and a New Earth. Anyway, I can't think of ways to transition into sharing those letters, but I'll figure it out. I keep thinking that my diary entries will get me there. Today those entries ushered me into my story of my rebirth. So, there you are. I can't imagine anyone reading all of this - but I suppose some do.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
GET A CUP OF COFFEE IF YOU PLAN TO READ THIS. IT'S A VERY LONG POST.
Tomorrow Charlie and I travel to Auburn, borrowing a friend's truck, to move both Sarah and Kate into their apartments. They won't be living together. We are giving them some of our furniture from our house - plus odds and ends that they have accumulated in their dorm - those pieces are in storage at Auburn. When Charlie and I do these "moves" for our girls, and it can be so exhausting, I am reminded of the many many times Mom and Dad had to move me, as a single female, and then helped Charlie and me when we moved to S'boro. Parenting, it's a lifetime experience - one never retires - and now Ann and Laura Beth, along with their husbands, have begun that "career" - When I'm in the midst of these parenting experiences my mind goes to Mother and Daddy, and to my grandparents. All the things they did - as grandparents - It feels like I'm running with a baton, and also passing another to Ann and Laura Beth - eventually - Sarah and Kate will probably join the married, parenting marathon - I think of Joel and Ursulla Murphree, of John and Nettie Wilkerson, of Ada Chapman Henderson(widowed, with many children), of Ella and Elbert Northcutt, of Edith and Frank Wilkerson, even my aunts and uncles - the legacy they passed on to me; parenting and grandparenting - investing time and love into their children - it would appear that they lived selfless lives when it came to their offspring - yet always carrying around the same "flesh and selfishness" that we still are encumbered with. But what prevailed was their investment in our lives - The most important thing, and this is God's grace, providing a climate and soil, which enabled my heart to be receptive to the gospel when I heard it - All of it is due to a sovereign God, who ordained that I live in this place, in this world, at this time - with this family legacy - and since this was His plan, I want to be as Christ in the world - right where I am -
Anyway - all of that serious stuff - written because Charlie and I are moving Kate and Sarah this weekend, in Auburn. Tomorrow and Saturday when we are so hot and sweaty - well, I'm guessing I won't be thinking such heavenly and spiritual thoughts - I hope Charlie and I can do it all without a fight - or without me saying any bad words - (I have a few that slip out all along)
I want to post the next few diary entries - since I'll be gone a few days - until Monday - and see what I was doing in 1962, the week following my return from Camp Grandview.
Monday, July 28, 2008
CATCHING UP ON DIARY ENTRIES
The last one I posted was July 8, 1962. If you recall it read like this:
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
The Northcutt Family
This is my story for today.
I've mentioned that I lived in Evergreen, Alabama, growing up. My grandparents were Ella and Elbert Northcutt. Ella and Elbert lived all of their lives in Evergreen. They had four girls, Lucille, Edith, Florence, and Mary. The first 3 were three years apart, but Mary was born 10 years after Florence. So, you can see that Lucille was 16, Mom was 13, and Florence was 10 when Mary was born. So, before any of them grew up and married, and before any of us (their offspring) were born they had this big life going on there, with many relatives living nearby and visiting quite a bit. We always heard those stories. Elbert was in business and eventually became the owner of Northcutt's, a Clothing Store for Men. But always he was in that kind of business; first working for someone, and eventually having his own business.
They all lived in a rather large, yet unadorned house on McMillan Street. 111 McMillan Street. I think they had it built. It sat on a slope of ground so that the front porch was close to the street and closer to the ground than the back of the house. The back of the house sat high off the ground, and I'm telling this for a reason. It was a wood frame house built on brick columns. There wasn't a solid wall around all the area "under the house". There were just brick columns throughout for support. So, in Mother's day and on into my day we called that area "Under The House". We'd say, "let's play under the house". They said it, too. It was a great "underworld". It was hard smooth ground under there and it was dark and cool. Naturally there was more light, closer to "Out from under the house". An adult could stand up under there, toward the back of the house, but of course even a child had to kneel down as he got closer to the front of the house.
So, we have Ella, Elbert and their four girls; and living with them was Granny. That was Ella's Mother. Ella was the youngest of many siblings. (I always forget how many.) Granny's name was Ada Chapman Henderson. I never knew her, but it's as if I did. If I had a perfect memory and could write all the stories I've heard about her I would do it. She died right before my sister was born - so I just missed her. I was born 2 years later. I'm getting sidetracked.
In that house on 111 McMillan Street lived the Northcutt family, Ella, Elbert, Lucille, Edith, Florence, Mary and Granny(Ada Henderson). Next door to them, in a smaller house which looked like a "Low Country Cottage", lived Grandma Chapman, Granny's Mother. It's been told to me that Granny lived with Ella and Elbert and would take care of Ma Chapman during the day and spend the night with her, so she wouldn't be alone. She had to have been quite old, because that was 4 generations living side by side. Ella's many siblings also had children, which created a large extended family for Lucille, Edith, Florence and Mary. The three cousins whom the girls seemed to be the closest to were Virginia Holt, Elizabeth, and "Brother". These were the 3 children of Ella's sister, Elizabeth, whom we called "Sister". Virginia Holt, Elizabeth, and Brother were "out-of-town" cousins, but visited often.
In this Blog Post I am going to share a letter written by Louis, the son of "Brother". He would be a second cousin - He's at my level of the Fam Tree. He wrote it to the surviving sisters, Edith, Flo and Mary, after Lucille died in October 2004. He mentions Joanne and Chuck in the letter. They are the two children of Cousin Elizabeth.
Dear Florence, Edith, Mary and all y'all,
Hearing about Lucille brought back some of the grief I felt at losing my parents. It especially made me recall my father, because he always did think the Northcutt women were wonders of the world. It also brought back some fond memories of how kind Lucille and all of you were to a shy, pimply-headed younger cousin from Virginia. Dad's affection for you was never hard to understand and you have a special place in my heart as well.
I've imagined that if Mack and Lucille have met up again somewhere, he probably said, "Oh, no," and Ella probably said, "What's wrong, brother, it's just Lucille?" And he said, "Well, I know, but it looks like I'm gonna have to die again - at least this time it'll be from laughing." If he's been talking with Elbert, he's probably already considerably weakened. I do believe that the laughter you all shared in your lives will survive your generation and has already been passed on. Joanne, Chuck, and I have known it and share it with each other - and we all owe you a debt of gratitude for just being who you are in that very special place that's Evergreen, Alabama.
It's been a very long time, but y'all are still my people, and I love you.
Sincerely yours,
Louis
And now I'll share a poem written by Carolyn Leslie, daughter to Cousin Virginia Holt. This poem was written for her brother after Virginia Holt died. It expresses the emotions and feelings and realities that are threaded throughout this Southern Family.